I’ve spent the last few days contemplating whether to enter myself for this or not but today I realised that intuitive eating might be the end of my struggle and that I should give this a shot.
I’m Alia, a recovering bulimic who has turned 19 years old two months ago. I had promised myself I would turn 19 completely recovered. Instead I spent the day sleeping and eating and purging. I failed myself. I struggled with eating disorders for more than two years now. Recovering from bulimia is the more difficult thing I’ve have to do. Its the ghost that has been drawn up from my childhood and all the sad stories that followed me while I was growing up.
I’m in college now and I’ve suffered enough, through and through. I couldn’t remember even being in most of my classes last semester because I used to sleep through them all, mostly out of exhaustion and not having any energy. I started trying to recovering a few months ago. Its been an ordeal.
I live in India, were most of the food is fried and soaking in oil or sugar. My mind turned every food into the start of a binge. I try now to eat healthier. I start my day with unsweetened cereal and milk and because of lack of options at college, two cups of white rice and curry or vegetables and a snack later (which sometimes ends up in a binge) but these days, I’m fighting off the panic attacks that come from just eat a bar of chocolate, telling myself Its just a chocolate. Its alright. Dinner is something light usually but on a bad day, it results in binge purging. The eating disorder has ruined my life but I’m taking it back day by day…and I’d love this book because I realise it might give me the tools to fight this demon in my head. Thanks for having this competition. You’re such an inspiration